Life can turn around

I had a maid when I was small. She was very young indian that came from a very poor family. She always come to do the house work like sweeping the floor, iron clothes etc. At that time she I think was 16 years old and I was in primary school. Kuasa Allah is the greatest. Her sister's husband is doing scrapping and collecting metals and iron and selling them to a third party. My maid is working with her sister. Can you believe that she is successful businesswomen. Her sister's have like 15 lorry to do all the carrying metal job. She now has her own place to stay and drives an SUV. More comfortable life than I am right now, I guess.

A few months ago, I went to her sister's son birthday party. It was only party but guess wat, the rent 6 tents and the tents was decorated like a Malay wedding. That shows how leverage her life is now.

All the colourful tents just for a ten year old birthday boy

The moral of the story, never look down to other people as u do not know what will happen in the future. Allah can change a person life, how He wants it. Keep trying in life as you never knows what Allah will do in return on your effort. Smile. :)

Krabi honeymoon

This was the second attempt to spend our honeymoon as the first time I was pregnant with my son and I was having a bad morning sickness. Our trip was on the 28 March 2012 (Wed) - 30 March 2012 (Friday).

At this point, I was pregnant with my second and I don't feel like going for holidays especially honeymoon. But this time, I wanted to get it over with and I don't want to postponed anymore. We already postponed when we gt married in 2010 and now already 2012. The same reason. I was and am pregnant again!

Our flight was is around 2 o'clock in the afternoon. It takes around 1 hour and 45 minutes to reach Krabi. It is more nearer than going to Sabah. It was a direct flight. Krabi airport is small but beautiful airport. There even have massage on top of a fountain. It is so Thailand. We were greeted by the agent and we ride in a ini van to our hotel. Our hotel is opposite the sea in the Ao Nang beach.

It is a beauiful country to have your honeymoon spent with your loves one. It was a correct choice. The only thing was, I was pregnant. We stayed in srisuksant resort. It was a 3 star hotel. The hotel location was opposite the Aonang beach. It was very strategic.

At night we will go out in tut tut to go to Halal restaurants. There are a few halal restaurant. You just ask the tut tut driver and they will take you there. One of the indicator, the restaurant must have a star and moon crescent to show it is a halal restaurant. Mostly, the owner is from Kelantan or Patani and they can speak a little bit of Malay.

At night, the Aonang street will fill with alots of lights where people selling souvenirs, tickets for island hopping, night clubs and massages. It is alive at night compared to in the morning. To my surprise, there are so many tourists with families and babies. It is consider a family vacation.

The next day, we rent a motorbike for 250 Baht equivalent to RM25. The easiest way to convert to RM is by reducing a single decimal point. We went around the Krabi town. It took us like 30 minutes to reach Krabi town. I wanted to visit a few places like the tiger cave temple but we couldn't find our way. At last we just have our lunch and we went to Big C. It was the biggest supermarket there. It is like Tesco or a big Giant in Malaysia. I bought a kitchen curtain because it is on sale.

I even throw up at the supermarket due to my morning sickness. I only can survive better in the morning and start to weaken in the evening and I would loved to have a break to sleep. I was lucky to have a such patient and considerate husband. A part of me feeling a little bit sorry for my hubby for spoiling his vacation. Actually we would have done snorkeling and we missed such a great experience because the island was so spectacular with the natural lime stone and shape of the island. Even one of the island is called Chicken Island because it looks like a head of a chicken.

At night, we would walk through the shops along the Aonang beach. The last night, my hubby went a Thai Massage while I waited for him. I was quite envy because I was the one that was excited to get the original Thai massage and now I do not dare to take the risk of doing massage as I was carrying a baby.

It would be a nicer and romantic ran away vacation but I was struggling with my nausea. Hate that when it happen. It was such a struggle.

To wrap it all, it was a fine vacation from work and stress. I love you hubby, always to understand, tolerate and be patient with me all the time.

long tail boat to go to islands

towards Krabi town

Aonang beach



natural limestone

Dilation and curettage (D&C)

I did my D&C on Monday 16 March 2012 in the same place I had my son delivered in a clinic in Klang. It had to be done because the heartbeat of the baby has stop by 8 weeks in pregnancy and now as I am having my D&C it is 11 weeks and the half.

In the first place, I went to check up at a random women's clinic in SS2 as it is nearer to my house and I d not want to go to klinik kesihatan yet. The doctor told me that the baby having no heartbeat and the baby already stopped growing. He scanned me twice and another scanned is from the underneath to confirmed it. I was surprised as I thought it would never happen to as I had my son easily even though at that time I was not ready to become a Mother. But Allah knows better. Usually when you really want something, it is much more difficult to get it compare to if you are not ready for it. As I said Allah knows better. Even my husband have tears in his eyes. As for me, as I reach home, I was blanked and I do not know what to do and cried. Pasrah.

The worst thing that could happen was, even the baby is not alive, I was still having my nausea, my mouth still feel payau, and the worst I was tired all the time. Even to walk I need to make an effort. I think it is much worse than I was pregnant. But from nausea point, it is becoming better. I read it in the internet, the hormon is reducing so I am getting better. The only thing was I feel really2 tired. I think it is eating up inside...scary. That is why I wanted to do the operation fast.

I went to University Hospital to know the doctor is only free another 2 weeks. The doctor don't even check me up. I was frustrated and I was misreable being where I am and feel the way I am at that time. Lastly, we, my husband and I went to a private clinic.

Now, I am on MC for the whole week.

How do I feel? Not that sad because I can't wait to get over the tiredness and nausea but in the same time I still feel sad as I already went through 2 months of nausea and all my plans just went to the dustbin. As I say, human can plan, but Allah knows better.

During the operation, I do not feel a think as I was put under gas bius. It was a fast procedure and it is not call emergency. The operation was taken about 1 hour. Before that I was being inserted into the vagina a medication to make the vagina to be soft. I have to wait for 1 or 2 hours to make the medicition take place. I felt like having period cramp but it is still can be handle. After the operation I felt really dizzy and it takes around 1 hour to make it to go off. I even vomitted because the nurse told the body is rejecting the bius. My stomach feels a bit pain as the nurse told me because the rahim is trying to shrink like we are after deliver. Anyway, I managed to get home around 1 o'clock in the evening. It takes almost half a day.

Now, I in confinement. That is another reason why I have time to blog.

My hubby said because we when to Krabi and it was the plane air preassure. I do not feel that was the major reason as I did not go snorkeling or active sports even swimming or massage I did not do as I was feeling nausea and dizzy.

Let's list down what is the cause that could make this happen:

1. I did not eat pregnancy medication like obimin or asid folik (I eat asid folik but not discipline)

2. Because I was too active taking care of my first son, carrying him, crawl and play with him.

3. Maybe because my son always sits on my lap and sometimes preassure the stomach even sometimes he could just jump on it.

4. As my husband said, the plane preassure should be blame.

5. I thought because in Krabi, the food are to be suspicious of the 'halal'nity, They say it is halal but they still served alchohol to the foreigners. The food is not pure to become baby Moslim flesh. Waallahualam.

6. I never take care of myself because I never when for checkup before that. I just want to get over the nausea that is why I just ignore the checkup.

7. I still do house work as normal. I did not get enough rest.

Scientificly, the doctor said exact reason it is unknown but a few possibilities would be the abnormality chromosome, the sperm is spoilt, something wrong with women's egg, the ovum and sperm are not properly attached.

Nevertheless, we should take this as qada' and qadar. Try again. InsyaAllah.

Bye Bye car

My car will be gone by today. That car was my very first car Proton Wira 1.5. I bought the car from my brother. That car was also my brother first car. Now I am selling it to buy my brother's car again that is Honda Civic 1.8. I always wanted to buy a more stable family car for the sake of going back to kampung.

I already surveyed weather to make a private bank loan or government loan. Actually the different is the way they calculate the interest. For government they calculate by the remaining of what you have paid through out the years, meanwhile for private bank loan, their interest is maintain until the end of the year of payment.

What I can say is Alhamdulilah. I bought that Honda under market price so I saved a little bit of money. More over I know the way my brother drove. He always take cares of his belonging. Unlike me, I drive like a crazy women and I intend to spoil and the life of the car sooner that it is.

I think it is a worth bargain for. If I keep on keeping the Wira, I will the one that will have the lost as it will not be valuable anymore and it will be a piece of junk worth nothing.